Get to Rebuilding

Clean, everything is clean. For the first time in a long time I went on a cleaning rampage today. I mean I keep things up to par most of the time, but it isn't often that I go "white glove". Over all, I feel pretty good. Things are aligning in order and I don't feel quite as bummed out as I did for the past few days. I think some of it has to do with the fact that I gave myself no free time at all. I kept doing and doing and doing, not stupid stuff either. I was pretty constructive and creative all day. When I woke up I felt like crap. I was really pissed off that it didn't snow AT ALL. But one of two of my classes got cancled anyways, so that was great. Physics lab wasn't even that hard.

I suppose it was only a matter of time before I learned how to bide my time considering all of the new variables this semester. I think I'm going to go hunt for a new job pretty soon to take the place of valet. I can't afford to not be getting work from them right now. I hate the idea of a less flexible job though, and what if it isn't tip pay? I guess I'll survive.

And guys, I don't mean to be so bummed out all of the time. I guess that's all you really think of me if you just read my journal. I'm a happy person a lot of the time too. Sometimes writing is the only way I can express my inner struggles though. That's why a lot of the time it comes out on paper (digital paper). I'm not saying that times have been easy as of late. I really did just come through a pretty heavy storm. This, I actually equate to a tornado... and me? I'm a trailor home. I'm a trailor home that got ripped in half and a good bit of the stuff I loved got lifted into the air. I might not ever see it again. But now, now it's time to rebuild. You can only be bummed out for so long. Eventually you just have to grab a hammer and some nails and get to work again.

Well... a mouse just crept into my room. He can't escape though because I just sealed the door on him. I'll kill him before morning. He doesn't really have much of a place to hide.

I think I'm going to play some guitar for a while before bed. Peace and love.