Home Alone?

Yes, I am infact home alone. It's sorta nice having everything to myself for a few days before I go back to school. But I have to work like woah for the next week that's for sure. Right now I'm cleanin the house a bit with some loud disco music playin on my computer. Got cloths in the wash, dinner on the stove, and the vacuum is on standby.

I did the worship service this morning. First service was really receptive, but second didn't sing that much. People are so uptight these days. I just want to spray everybody down with liquid valium sometimes, but I gotta respect differences. I don't understand the no sing mentallity personally, but that's just me. I think it's hard for people to break from stiffness at a certain age. Society expects so much self-control from people all the time, especially in the white collar business world. Singing definitely would be considered as a lack of self-control in the office cubicle i guess. That's a shame. I think we should all break out into song and dance sometimes. I did at work Friday. A song from Greece came on the radio so I jumped up on my table and started dancing. It felt good even though everybody stared at me... but when was the last time I cared.

I was really encouraged that the song I wrote touched so many people though. I had several compliments. People are always telling me that I'm blessed which is way more than I get in Nashville. I suspect that I will miss the encouragement. Mr. Schrum cried and hugged me after I was done. That meant alot to me. I really wanted his approval of the song.

Speaking of which, I'm really excited to start recording my album this year. I have so much ambition built up in my system. I really hope it doesn't get drained. That would be a shame. I know! I won't persue women this year! That'll work... ... ...... psych! I don't know about that right now. I'm feeling pretty relaxed about it, but I'm almost certain that my previous ambitions of finding a girl in my hometown are going to fall rapidly through the cracks... or maybe it's because I'm shoving them through the cracks. Yeah, I suspect I'll leave town before I see her. I really don't feel like making an effort. My heart is so tired of trying, ya know? I feel weird around her dad now too which shows pretty bad when he's around. I used to be excited to see him, but now I get the feeling that he'd rather me not speak much of the subject. That's cool I guess. I mean I can live with that. This town holds alot of pain though in all honesty. I really do need to get back to Nashville. I suspect that the pain that was once their is gone now. I'm not holding grudges or anything. That's not what I mean by that statement. I mean that I'm cool about all of it. It's in the past. No more. A lesson well learned.

But gotta go. My dog wants to play. Peace and love.