Ideas

I've discovered why it has been so hard for me to sleep as of late. I have so many ideas about programs and high expectations for this year's residents that my head is exploding. I want it to be known without a doubt that Pembroke Hall is the best dorm on campus. I want everyone to envy living there. I want the legacy to continue and I have just the plan. As for working out the plans, I'd say that is more of the reason for the loss of sleep. I'm not quite sure how I will work everything out, but I feel convinced that I can do it with the help of the other RA's.

As for work, it is hard, but I am learning everything I hoped to learn about money this summer. With more money comes more planning. The more necessary money is, the more prepared and wise you must be to handle it. But as for work, I do not so much dread going in to work in the morning as much as I dread 7:00am. Karl says that 7:00 has "angry eyes", and I believe him. I must admit though that even in the midst of learning a great deal about God, relationships, and money management this summer... I have learned nothing about sleep management. I don't think it is something that I am quite ready to sacrifice yet. I think I shall have to be conquered by a woman before that happens, and as things are now... that could be quite some time.

But general life right now is of contentment. Sure I have alot to look forward to, but sometimes it is best to sit back and think about the good things that are in the room with you rather than the experiences you will soon have just outside the door. I am content, yes, but at the same time I am ready to face new challenges. I have realized more and more for the past few days that I am a man who seeks adventure. I want to take challenges head on and find a way to solve them by myself. The "by myself" part has prooved to be a bit of a problem. I am too much of an isolationist when it comes to personal problems. I don't like advice or help from anyone. That will also be something that I fear will only change when I am conquered by a woman.

Let me clarify that statment. I do not say that in the sense that I will be "whipped". I am merely stating the fact that when a man finds the woman who he is most compatable with, he will do some changing, mostly for the better. He is a blade while she simultaneously works as a mill stone and a sheith. He will become both sharper and more controlled by her side. They will work together to sharpen eachother, or as Proverbs better puts it, "Iron sharpens iron."

I shall now go to bed early and enjoy my relaxed state. I get payed tomorrow which is nice, but I also have a great night's sleep to look forward to at the present, which seems even more worth while. As for helping with sports camp at church this week... things have been sparse and slow, but enjoyable. I do not know if my assistance is required tomorrow, but through this I am learning how to better be a servant, even in uncomfortable environments. Hey, atleast I'm getting to do what I've been trained to do (alot of audio and technical work). That's cool. But for now I bid you adue. Peace and love.