Helplessly Watchful and Dreams of Heroism

It's hard to see a friend in pain. It's hard to watch them and feel completely helpless. I got to spend some quality time with one of my friends tonight that I haven't seen in quite some time. We had fun and talked alot, but then it came down to serious discussion. He's really going through difficult times right now. He's having to make decisions that I would have never thought he would have to be making. I just want to jump in to his cockpit and do it for him, but I can't. I can only encourage in a limited understanding of what he's going through. But more than that, I can pray for him. I want him to be alright. I don't want him to have to suffer any more. It's a hard position to be in.

But the week is underway. I have alot of work to do between now and Friday that I'm really trying hard to get done. I think tomorrow I'll be mowing the lawn and doing a little more house work. I still have to get new tires for my car, and I need to pack above all else! That's alot of confusion on top of planning a festival, but God will get me through it. I feel confident of that. ... Oh! I just spilled a sugary drink on my desk and keyboard... hope that doesn't come back to haunt me.

Ah, but right now I'm listening to Chopin. I love Chopin's pieces. They could sing me to sleep on a roller coaster! But my eyes are almost as heavy as my heart right now. I need some good sleep and some good God time. I need to focus in the midst of all of the hum and buzz of life.

Lately I find myself caught in the desire to do something amazing. To be caught up in something brave and much higher than myself. I want to conquer and to achieve victory, but I also want to share that with someone. My dreams and visions are that of a warrior. I feel called to greatness, but how do I start of from here? I know that sounds random and rediculous, and maybe it is... but that's how I feel right now. Anyways, I hope all is well where you reside. I must venture to the land of slumber. Peace and love.