Weekends: They Come and Go

Okay, first things first. I'm way super excited about this Thursday and I'm going to leave it at that. Second of all, I have a pretty amazing work load this semester, so I'm pretty pumped about that. Third of all, I'm workin out harder than ever before and I feel great. Mitch is too and he's really slimmed down alot over the summer. We should do wonders as a team.

Discouragements rest on my job as an RA. This is prooving to be a bit more challenging than I had anticipated, largely because of the demographic that lives in Pembroke this year. There are a few guys who have grabbed on pretty quick to the traditional character. But then there are the guys who are in "camp mode". They can't do anything but ask every girl out that they meet and go crash every party in town because it hasn't quite clicked yet that these are the people that they will be in close contact with for the next four years. It's a problem that needs mending, but right now I'm tempted to see if it's just their lack of understanding as to what college really is. I think a mid-term would crack a few skulls, but also the fact that they've only been here just a little bit over a week. College is still a novelty to them and it shows big time. The freshman character usually consists of a bunch of folks who want to look like they're in college so they try... and end up trying too hard. I went through that phaze just like I expect most of them to, but I'm really hoping it's just that... a phaze. That way things might turn for the brighter side and not seem so dismal.

My other discouragement lies in my confidence (weird, I know). Nothing seems to bother me. No confrontation, no challenge seems too out of reach. That can be good for alot of things, but it can also get someone into alot of trouble. My will power is far stronger now than it was even at the end of last semester. I'm afraid of where such a strong will could lead. Mostly I just want to relax my mind like I did over the summer. I wasn't worried about anything. I just let stuff happen and I dealt with it then. Right now I seem to be dangerously thirsty for challenge. I guess that means I'll have to figure out a way to convert that thrist into something completely positive.

Anyways, I'm pretty pumped about this hurricane that's comin our way. I love hurricanes. It's just amazing to watch their consistent and incredible power. Stuff like that really brings me into a unique way of thinking about God.

I'm hopeful for the sunshine though. I'm really looking forward to some blue fall skies. It's medium seasons that I can really get into. I never feel more alive than I do in the spring and in the fall... but if I had to name a favorite, I would probably say spring. Spring brings about thunderstorms which inspire me every time. I can just stare at the sky for hours on end if there is a good light show and enough wind involved.

But right now I think I might just take some time to be silent and reflect. Alot has happened this weekend and I have made quite a few decisions that need contemplation. I am continuing my mission of discipline this year in hopes to get my heart, mind, and soul in the right place. It's not easy as anyone knows, but I feel obligated. It's like a given quest for me. But anyways, I hope that all is well where you reside. Talk to you soon. Peace and love.