Wearing a Smile

I was happy today, genuinely happy for the first time in a long time. Classes started and they were great. My professors are all great. I scheduled at work for the semester and I think it's really going to work out for the best. I can't explain why it is that I feel these sudden bursts of happiness, but I wish I had them more often. Things look so much more beautiful when you're wearing a smile and the sun is warm even if the air is not. I'm still really confused right now, but the difference is that I'm more hopeful of what might happen. Sometimes I really hate being a realist. It's not seeing things white and not seing things in black, but seing everything in grey. Right now, seeing things in white is nice. I'm probably making you sick with all of the happy talk though, but I do wish to get specific about a few things. First off, I had great news today when I went to see my advisor. I don't have to take calculus again! That means I'll never have to take another math class again ever! That's the best news I've had in a long time. More good feelings came from running into people I haven't seen in a while and even more came when I met a guy that goes to my church and who I also work with who said he might be able to get me a road gig with a band when I graduate. That would be perfect for me, but we'll take things one step at a time. The final things that really just made me super happy today was seeing my friends, the ones that are falling for eachother. I left the appartment early so they could say goodnight and I saw them in the livingroom just hugging eachother. It was a beautiful image, and I know it sounds weird, but it made me feel good. I'm going to bed now though. I get to sleep in too. What a day. Peace and love.