Survival Basics

So how exactly do you survive in a house with no heat in the most dreadful of cold? I'm still figuring that part out right now. As if waking up in the morning wasn't hard enough, it's even more difficult when you get up to slam the alarm and the cold just completely envelopes your body. We've got these dinky curtains up where there should be doors in the house in attempts to contain any heat we manage to produce, but I have a feeling that those curtains aren't quite heavy enough to do the job well. I'm just going to accept the fact that the house will be cold. I mean I could make small investments here and there to warm things up a bit, but in all honesty, I'd rather just tough it out. It keeps my head in the right place.

I've managed to find myself frequenting the library more and more these days in attempts to find a small plot of peace and quiet. I sleep on a desk in the back of the second floor level whenever I get the chance. I know people walk by and snicker when they see me, but the joke is on them. They're the one's who are awake.

I've spent the day thinking a lot about what I wrote about last night. I have landed on this understanding, which might not be divine, but I have interpreted it as so. I can make all of the plans I want and work for goals that I wish to have, but ultimately it is God who will decide where I end up. That being so, I plan on sending out resumes to both Nashville and Raleigh. I'm also going to be looking at open doors in churches and in relationships. Does anyone here really need me? They might like having me around, but do they need me? I feel that my life's purpose is to fullfill someone else's need. My eyes will be open for the next rest of the year.

I'm learning stress management along with my understanding of all of these things. I'm trying not to focus on how busy I am, but instead, how I am performing. If I see something as a challenge rather than an obligated task, I tend to have higher spirits when undertaking that activity. I do not, however, wish to waste my worries and efforts on tasks that would draw my attention away from more important ones. I tell you that I first and foremost value relationships followed by my passions and then scholastics. I'm not going to waste my time in college by sucking at school work, but I am also not going to let it rip my relationships apart or steal my drive and enthusiasm. You must balance yourself or you will go crazy.

Peace and love.