Pep Talk

This morning I decided to wake up early and get started on the math I hadn't finished last night. Topped with some eggs and extra warm socks, I found myself still having a difficult time focusing. I figured that maybe if I went to Belmont early, I would be able to find a nice quiet corner and focus there. That's what I ended up doing and for the most part, it worked. I'll tell you though. I worked on that math for the majority of the day. I even went to a math lab and became quite discouraged after the math tutors couldn't even help me. This is supposed to be an introductory course! But I did eventually get it done and handed in. That's just the small part though. I have a test on that material on Friday. I'll be studying for the rest of the week is what that means.

But on the way to school, I gave myself a bit of a pep talk. Being super-frustrated is accepting defeat. I never give up so easily and, in fact, I rather enjoy finding out which doors are opened and which ones are closed. If you've ever seen the movie "The Edge", Anthony Hopkins' character puts it best. "Most people who are lost in the wilderness do not die of starvation or cold, but they instead die of shame. They believe they will die and so they do." So I'm not going to accept defeat but I'm also not going to stress out about victory.

Moving on.

While eating dinner at the cafe tonight, I saw a really cute girl eating by herself at a table for two by the window. I hate it when that happens. I almost got up and walked over to introduce myself except I really just didn't want to be another guy trying to pick up on her. Besides, I learned quite well from last year that random introductions don't really quite work that well for a person of my... personality(?).

We sat by the fire again tonight. That's really turning into a great investment. It's good and quiet, away from the everyday hum-drum. Matt has taken a fondness to cooking on it and I just get really relaxed amidst its warm glow. Sure it makes my cloths stink, but that only ends up making me feel like more of a man, so no complaints here. But we were really bummed that no kids came to ask us for candy being that it was Halloween and all. Chubbs bought a ton of it to give away. I guess we were just too scary for them in our natural habitat. Maybe the parents in the neighborhood saw me out swining my ax Sunday afternoon and told their kids to stay away. Haha... not likely ;)

Well, I'm going take positive steps towards a healthy night's sleep. Peace and love.