Discipline

Today was major achievement for me in my journey towards complete discipline. I have almost half a page of activities that I accomplished, and those were just the major things I had to do not even including class or small errands. I feel great too, but right now I am STARVING! My eating schedule is way out of wack, and now-a-days I don't have too many meal plans. I think... I might go for the almost year old chips in my closet. Don't worry, they're unopened.

So one of the tasks I accomplished today was a white glove cleaning of my room. It took a good many hours to do, but never-the-less, I finished. It was a good time just to reflect and get my mind into an orderly estate. I found out that I left my fridge unplugged the other day while I was recording. I had to throw away everything that was inside, including my Britta pitcher. It had mold growing at the base of it that looked an awful lot like Japan... but anyways, now my room is as fresh as it has ever been, and I feel at ease.

So the discipline factor is an idea I had that came out of my whole revelation this week. I have disciplined myself to work out every day, and now I do it without any mental effort, I just go. That's all fine and good, but now it is trickling into other regions of my life. I am starting to discipline my orderly habbits. They say setting habbit takes fourty days, so I'm in for the long haul I suppose. I will discipline myself in major categories of my life one, maybe two at a time until I have achieved almost military disciplinary habbits. Hopefully each discipline I aquire will make the next one seem that much easier to accomplish.

Socially I have to make sure to keep up relations with others amidst all of this change. The difference between a jock and a dork is the amount of social time spent as opposed to the time in isolation. A jock makes up the far right, and a dork makes up the far left. I'm looking for a middle point between there, as I do with most issues in life. I want to be disciplined and studious, but I also do not want to sacrifice my social skills. It will be a challenge to weigh the two precisely.

So God has truly been good to me this week. He has handed me a tool that I can use for the rest of my life if I learn how to use it. Learning is the challenge I face currently, but I shall endure. Oh! That reminds me. This weekend I get to start on the worship team at Midtown Fellowship. That's the church I go to now. I've been trying really hard to find my place here in Nashville, and I think I might have finally reached it. Of course you know the whole story. I went to Midtown all of last year, but I never got involved. This year I started out going to Judson
Baptist, but it was a bit awkward for me and I was going for all of the wrong reasons. I was incredibly distracted so I went back to Midtown. Now I had the guts to actually talk to someone to get involved, and they let me right in. I practice this Saturday at 10 o'clock. I don't necissarily know if I will start playing this week on Sunday. I asked not to in order that I might get better acquainted with the band, but I'm sure that won't take too long. It's just nice to finally find someone who can use the gifts you have.

I've noticed myself being really awkward lately though... It's really weird. I'm not as articulate with speech as I usually am, and I kinda freeze up when I'm in communication with unfamiliar people. That's not like me at all. I seem to recall certain phases in my early childhood though where I would start to studder or something like that. Maybe this is just one of those phases, or maybe I'm moving too fast. Oh well, I'm just going to have to learn because I'm not slowing down. Hope all is well where you reside. Peace and Love.