Welcome Back to Planet Earth

Happy Thought of the Day: "Hey Nate, are you getting taller?"
"Nah, that's not it, his boobs are just getting bigger."

Things That Bother Me... of the Day: People that are WAY too happy all of the time, even in
dire situations. Don't get confused with happiness and
joy. They are not the same. We should always have joy
but when you just act happy all of the time... you will be
labled "nieve", "idiot", or "superficial" faster than you can
say "poopty peupty pants-ss". There is a time and place.

So here I am, sitting up at two o'clock in the morning after a long day of crazy. It wasn't crazy busy, but just crazy in general. I guess that's a word I use broadly, so you'll just have to know me to know what I'm talking about. Last night I went to Jorge's huge house to spend the night with eight some guys. It was insane. It looked like a knight's layer in the basement and there was a sauna room and a hot tub (not functional :( ). I tried to get as much sleep as I could, but I think I might be coming down with something. Either that, or I have just been working so hard without any re-coup time that I'm finally loosing my edge on life. Both are possible, but I'm not worried. You know me and getting sick... Though it isn't rare per say, even the most monsterous of diseases pass in a day or two... unless of course I get ecoli again. Needless to say, I've been sleeping alot today. I feel drugged, possibly from congestion, but whatever. Other than sleep, I didn't really do much, though I had much planned. Rain steifled my attempts to go on a photo shoot, so I'll probably just go tomorrow after church. We went to $4.98 for dinner, and Aaron had an eat free card that he gave me, which was awsome because I have no money to spend anymore. I'm waiting for my paycheck to come and maybe a medical study or two on the side. Anyways, after eating I came back and, of course, slept again. Waking up, I cleaned my room, played some cards with some guys and chicks, and then Matt and I did some recording and beat making. I've been listening to this beat now for quite a while so I think I'll just turn it off and listen to some Frank Sanatra... There we go. That's better.

So working in my studio today gave me a few... wow, everything just turned purple... hmmm... that can't be incredibly good... oh well, whatever... back to what I was saying... Working in the studio gave few new ideas. It also got me thinking. I was so creative last year, and I've lost alot of that and I know why. The love of my life, the only woman I've ever know who hasn't betrayed me, cheated on me, or neglected me, I have neglected. My guitar and I haven't been together regularly all year. That's a true shame, and I need to fix that. I suppose it will be easy now that I'm back where I was last year. Yep, that's right, I lost that battle. I said I didn't want to go back to where I was last year for anything, but alas, here I am. I require more time to myself, I'm a little bit more carefree around the guys, and mostly... women in general just annoy me right now. There are a few exceptions to that rule, but those are only the ones that I have never felt pressured by. Anyways, I'm back on planet Earth now so I expect to be spending more time with my studio, no changes in the gym other than a five day workout plan instead of seven days, and I plan on re-organizing my scholastic tactics. In short, I'm back in mission mode. Women were a scenic detour, but now I'm back on the main road. I'm here to graduate with style and then get out of here.

I'm still totally confused as to what I'm going to do next year. I really just need to set aside some time each day to get in quiet. I haven't been doing that faithfully since school hit with full force this semester. Dieting from my computer has been of use though. I realize how much wasted time I have... time which can be utilized into accomplishing the many tasks I have on my plate. I probably won't stop procrastinating because that is one of my few means of entertainment, but I will be more efficient. If I return to Belmont next year, I have decided that I will be RA'ing here again in Pembroke. I have no choice really about the job, but if I do keep it, I want to stay in this building with the guys I work with now if at all possible. That's all I've got for now though. I'm going to get to bed and pray that I don't get too sick. Hope all is well wherever you reside. Peace and Love.