Distant Day Sunday

I had a few dreams last night... I'm not really going to go in to detail about them. One of them was more of a vision, because I recall not being asleep yet when I had it. This was good, an idea of how God can use me. The other one may have been good, but I saw it as bad. I had it this morning. I just remember a brief glimpse of the dream and then waking up yelling "Stop it! Stop it". I wasn't yelling at a person in the dream, I was yelling at the source of the dream. It was a cheap shot... Andy knows what I'm talking about. It was another one of those dreams that is supposed to be happy, and it is until I realize that I'm actually dreaming. It is then that all of the simulated good feelings that my mind is generating suddenly vanish to the reality of the situation. So waking up this morning wasn't too pleasant. After I screamed myself out of sleep, no more than ten seconds transpired before my alarm clock went off, so there was really no hope of returning to a peaceful slumber.

Church was good for a very special reason. My friend and fraternal brother Clayton was baptized this morning. It is amazing to see how quickly God can bring someone to him, and it reminded me of my future obligations. The sermon I did not agree with all the way around though he delivered it quite well and I'm sure many were blessed by it. It has also come to my understanding that God has not given me the authority to challenge such a position in the church, but I do believe I have the right to disagree. I will simply say this. God is a God of love, yes, but you must also never forget that He is also a God of vengance, a God of War, and a God of justice. It is not ours to think that we can perfectly define what is good and evil. When Adam and Eve entered that rhelm, it was a rhelm of confusion, not of clarity. We look around and quickly label things as good and evil, yes, but our definitions through sin have become distorted, thus we are not to judge lest we be judged. God is the ultimate judge of good and evil, and to try to assume such a position of authority for ourselves is not only dangerous, but impossible. We are to but trust God. I also do not believe that death is evil, atleast death of the body. Death of the soul is a result of our sin so it is evil, but death of the body is as certain as birth unless God says otherwise. Finally, God and God alone holds the right to take life. Yes, there are many vehicles of which life might be taken, even apparently evil vehicles, but God can and does use all things for His glory. Satan cannot take my life, it is Gods. That is why I do not fear death. I will not die until God sees fit that I should. Yet again, it is a privilage that God has not killed me already. Why am I alive? It is because God has a plan for me. Considering this, I do not quite buy into the idea of "natural evil": death by shark, sunami, lightening, etc. These are just modes of transportation to end the life of our body which no set ammount of time has been assured. Those who fear death quite possibly do not have the assurance of what lies behind that step in life. This concept is often confused with evil, but it is not. Evil is rebellion from God. The death of our bodies, for Christians, brings us closer to God, but it is God who controls death, and to take that authority away from Him, I strongly believe is wrong. It is not us who gives God control over anything. He has control whether we think he does or not. God also does not ask us to understand how He moves. He askes us to trust Him. That is our faith. It is only by the definition of good and evil that we have come to live by through our sin that our eyes see God as un-trustworthy. Do not waste time searching for purpose in the way God moves, instead just trust. That is why He is God and you are not. You need not worry about such things. They are His. We have our role in life which is to submit to God's authority, and to reach the lost with His Word. Taking anymore concern is much like those people who know nothing of carpentry that stand behind my dad while he works and questions his every movement. Understand that this is my dad's living. He does it every day and is quite knowledgable of his craft. Those people are simply announcing their lack of faith or trust in him when they consistently question. If they would simply let him do his job, things would get done alot faster. He is the carpenter, they are the patrons. If they knew how to do it, then they would be the ones working, not my dad. Now take that and expand it to divinity. God is God, and we are his servants. Does a servant question his master? Going any deeper in this matter is a waste of our time, but feel free to disagree, just make sure to back it up.

As the day continued, we were blessed with snow flurries even up until now I believe. Nothing stuck, but it was just nice to see. I haven't seen any white percipitation in two years. It would be really nice to have a few snow days this year.

Working out came later though. Mitch and I first went to GNC to buy suppliments. I have finally reached the peak physical condition I had in high school only after one week of heavy training and now I am going to build upon that with protein. The protein stuff I bought is incredibly nasty though. It tastes like I'm drinking sandy milk, but I must get through the mental frustration of it. I have noticed already incredible increase in definition and tone, as well as more energy and stamina. Cool stuff! I only got to work out half of today though, and tomorrow they are closed :( so I must find something else to work on until Tuesday.

My distance today though has come from my visions and revelations. I am still unsure as of what I am to do, but I must continue to be watchful, not giving up in my meditations on the things of God. Hah, it's funny. I never thought I would have become a "radical Christian", but it looks like that's where I'm going after all. Peace and Love...