Snow'd

Today was an interesting day. I spent most of it in the studio with Matt's family who came up to record. The songs were good and the session went very well, though it was rather long. I need to learn all I can while I have the opportunity. After college, I'm not neccissarily guarunteed a studio to work in and master.

It shouldn't suprise me, though, that I've been exhausted today. I was up so late last night. I went to a session that Matt and Stuffy were playing in and that Aaron was producing. After that we went to the house and had soup and watched tv. By the time the show was over and the soup was gone, it was 2:30 am. I started to go to bed, and then Burly got home. We ended up talking for a while about stuff. I was telling him how jaded and numb I've been feeling about certain stuff lately, but it's not depressing at all. He seems to think that I'll pull out of it and I seem to be feeling rather indifferent about it. In fact, I think the numbness has brought me to feel so good for the past few months. I don't know... I'm tired. I shouldn't be talking about stuff like this right now.

I do realize that I need some motivation pretty bad. I'm getting sucked in to that black hole that school does so well. I'm so busy that I feel like I'm on auto-pilot all the time. I think spring break will be good to get me back on my feet.

But it snowed today. I was glad to see it, though it wasn't much. There's something about the beauty of falling snow that is inspiring to me. I just went outside and stood in it for a while. I was the only one around and it was just quite with the street lights making it visible as it drifted down from the clouds. I do wish more of it had stuck, but this is Nashville and I have to get used to the fact that it doesn't really snow that much here ever. Speaking of which, when I went to the grocery store last night to pick up some food for the weekend it was packed! There were people there buying bread and milk and weeks worth of food for the "storm". I laughed because anyone who is familiar with snow and how freezing water works would know that anything that would have fallen last night or tonight wouldn't have stuck, and anything that did would have melted by the next day. The temperature here just bounces at such polar extreemes. Anyways, what were you planning on doing with all of that bread and especially all of that milk?

Now I suppose I should say my peace about Valentine's Day. I've been immersed in it for the past few days and it really makes me want to vomit on something new and clean. This is the only holiday that I refuse to take part in and will continue to do so. It just seems so completely shallow to me. "Hey, I think we need a day out of the year where we can do special stuff for the one we love!" Wow... great idea. It seems to me that it's completely based around girls. I don't know how it became that way, but it did, and now it victimizes them. They feel like if someone doesn't do something for them on Valentine's Day then there is something wrong with them. Do you recall my theory about this? I write at least two journals on it a year. Whatever. I think it would be inappropriate for me to discuss that theory right now. Plus, again, I'm tired. But to make things short, I'm sure it's great for the girls that have boyfriends, but that seems to be the only group of individuals that gets anything out of it. Guys have to pay an arm and a leg and plan like crazy to pull something off, so it's not a walk in the park for them, and it ESPECIALLY isn't cool for single girls. So I say let's get rid of it. Pretend that the day doesn't exist and make the majority feel good on what used to be Valentine's Day. Guys will save money, women won't have self examination crying parties with their other single girlfriends, and everyone will be awesome except for Hallmark and the Tissue Company. The only thing I really like about Valentine's Day is the heart candy. But it's not really the heart that does it for me. It could be in the shape of buttcheeks (if you turn them up-side-down, they are) and I would still like it. In Summary: Everybody chill out. Stop buying all of that cheezy crap. Girls, stop looking for reasons to feel like you suck. Guys, you don't have to wait for a day out of the year to do something special. Single guys, don't let em stick it to you when you don't really care. We can win in a state of apethy, but not if we have a bunch of you panzies walkin around being bitter. Nobody likes "that guy".

There. My peace on the holiday has been said. Now I shall go to... sleep. (I didn't want that to rhyme). Peace and love.