Set to Confusion

The sun was out today and will be tomorrow. The warmer weather has been inspiring and spring break is only a week away. There are several things I must accomplish before I am to arrive in AZ, but I think I'll use the last bit of breath I have to push it out and then sit back and relax. That means that this weekend will be a little strenuous, but if I can work hard enough just this little while, I'll be relaxed for the rest of the week.

Wow, I'm thirsty right now. I'm thirsty and I'm tired. I don't know what I want to do. The waterfountain is all the way on the first floor, so that would mean that I would have to walk all of those stairs just to get there to a warm waterfountain... Who wants to do that? Not me. I'll look for another excuse to go down there.

I think I realized today just how socially worn out I am. I think it's the dorm life. I'm growing out of it. It just doesn't seem right for me anymore. Something new and less busy perhaps. I'm beginning to appreciate silence more and more these days.

And now I'm confused. It's all working out fine until out of the blue something changes and redirects your attention to a pure form that you missed because you were so intent on looking down the road. But now you're down the road and everything you were looking for is here and seems less appealing than what it did when you were younger. So you look back and notice something there that you didn't notice before. It's something that could have been and then wasn't and then is again, but not really. You loose grip confusing dreams for reality and reality for dreams back and forth like a small boat in stormy waters until the blurryness from your eyes melts the two immages together, neither of them seem right now, but one is. Are you confused? I am.

Peace and love.