I'd Just Like to Say...

First of all, thanks to the anonymous commentor for pointing out my poor spelling habits. Once again, because I haven't said it in almost a year... I have a medical learning disability in the fields of both math... and spelling. I would like to announce, however, that I have previously adressed that situation and have in fact seen a doctor! The math I am not proud of, but spelling isn't exactly a bother to me. Reason being because english phonix is not concrete like it is in most languages. For every rule, there is an exception, which is why English is catagorized as one of the most difficult languages in the world to learn... so whatever. I'm currently studying three other languages that seem to be a great deal less problematic in that field so maybe I'll just adopt one of those in the future to save spelling face.

Anyways, to re-adress dreams. I do agree that most dreams are a way for the mind to "defrag" if you will, but there are others that I believe are supernaturally influenced. I have experienced dreams in more than one instance that have, the next day, happened to me verbatum. God can and often does speak to us through our dreams, much as He did to Daniel. In these situations I think it is often times good to document your dreams if you can remember them, and sit down and wrestle with them. More often than not, you will find that you can trace your dreams back to certain situations that occured during the previous day or days which supports the whole "defrag" theory, but sometimes there is a little more to it than that. You could take a psychological approach to dream interpritation, but that is about as concrete as English phonix in most cases. Then again, there is the spiritual rout, which in the United States, and most other scientifically based countries, is just as unpopular and uncomfortable to discuss as God or religion in general. If you ever have the opportunity to spend time in a third world country, I strongly suggest you take the time to do so. You will whitness there, spiritual powers that no scientist with a pen will be able to explain. I've whitnessed myself an old deaf woman, who was without hearing from the time of her birth, be healed before my very eyes through prayer. The first thing she heard was me playing my guitar and she broke down crying saying "That is the most beautiful sound" over and over again. Now this is my, as well as many of my friends', experience. Do I expect all of my readers to believe it? No. Just note that that experience made me and many others around me WAY less skepticle of supernatural powers and much more skeptical of science as an explanation to everything. This was NOT Benny Hen. Evil is just as prevelant though. I've whitnessed peoples lives being destroyed by spells cast on them. I also have a close friend who whitnessed more than one man die over a spell cast on them in Africa. I also have another close friend who has whitnessed both necromancy and the channeling of energy over long distances to damage other people or objects. These are topics that scientists generally keep distance from. Insane? Well if we're basing sanity and insanity as a defined by the general populous, then yes it is... and so am I. But this is a concept even criticized by the American church. I was one of them at one time, but after traveling abroad to the darkest corners of the earth and whitnessing with my own eyes what was there, I turned to American culture and started asking questions. America teaches carnal religion. Go to any church and they will teach you methods and principles on the best way to live in society, how to conduct yourself, and so on and so forth. Go to a thrid world country and there you will encounter spiritual warriors. People who do not neccessarily spend as much time in "reality" as we do, but have evident and sometimes frightening power. Whatever though. I'm just a college student with eyes and ears. Anyways, think about it. Why would the Devil waste his time on us by offering us supernatural power? We are a very spiritually dead people as a whole, obsessed more with paying the rent and watching tv than with anything spiritual. He needs not make an effort to ensnare us. That's why all of this religious rebellion in the Middle East baffles us. "Why can't we all just get along?" Because to most of us, religion is a shoe, a prefference, a membership to the YMCA. But to the "infirior biggot cavemen" in those foreing countries, religion is very real, and very grave. But alas, that will not be evident nor believed until it is too late. I really think I'm wasting time even talking about it. Just another wasted breath I suppose. Scholars will continue to argue, the great minds will continue to debate, and then... where is it all now. "It is evil to say 'tomorrow I will do this and go to that place'. What man controls his life? It is as a fog. Here one moment and gone the next." A bit of a summarization of a verse located in... I believe... Romans or maybe Corinthians. I'm bad with maps, but I've read it a few times. We waste alot of time bragging on what we know and what we will do, but on the death bed only one thing will matter.

On to the happenings of the day. My favorite part of discussion. I got a good bit done. I was privilaged enough to kill three wasps in my room which makes a grand total of four. Generally I am kind to insects, but I just don't like the idea of a wasp landing on me while I sleep. Therefore, they shall all die. The same goes for spiders. I don't mind them, and I actually consider them very interesting, but in my living space, I have no room for them... so they all will die. I think the statistic says that the average human swallows 20 spiders a year in their sleep. Yummmy. That's coming from a guy who ate a live cicada last year for a pepsi, a bag of gold fish, two double stacks, and ten dollars (not to mention the "respect" of 20+ guys).

I had a great amount of deep discussion with my friends today as well. It spanned anywhere from what friendship means to me, to relationships and where I am going. I feel rather inspired right now. Maybe I'll write a book or something... sike. I really look forward to tomorrow and the break that I will recieve from school for this weekend. I should probably invest some more time studying my Spanish though. I think I'm having a quiz tomorrow. But anyways, it is the meaningful time with people that I enjoy. Listening to them and how they view life and such, and finding similarities or trying to understand differences. That's what counts in my opinion. True companionship. I've always enjoyed that. As a person who has a gift for diggin into other people's minds, I myself generally know what to reveal and what to hide about myself. I never reveal to much, not even in my private journal. But to people who are willing to sit down with me and talk, if I can find sincerity in their hearts, I have no problem with opening up very deeply.

Reading people like books... Do you think I graduated from high school with a 4.0 gpa by studying every night? Heck no! I had better things to do. High school was the biggest waste of my time I could possibly think of. No, I dug into the brains of my teachers. I learned how they thought. They pretty much wrote all of their tests, and I knew based upon their character what each answer would be. No studying, just observation (though college is a bit harder). If I were ever a teacher (God forbid) I would know exactly what to do, and my students would no doubt hate my guts. Fortunately God has smiled upon both them and I by not giving me the ability to teach... Yesssssss! The trick is, you read someone's face, but more importantly their eyes. Human eyes are like a window into their soul. Most people get uncomfortable when you look directly into their eyes because they're afraid of what you might see. They feel vulnerable, sometimes even becoming violent. In drama I was taught that the most difficult part of the body to control is the eye. Anyone can alter facial expressions, but the eye tells the truth. Along with this, my grandfather is one of the countries top salesmen trainers. He worked with the Fortune 500 and the top CEO's of the country mastering an art of... I don't want to say mind control, but DANG, it's intense. He has been training me this year some very deep and interesting things for FREE! He generally charges an arm and a leg, but the guys he has trained usually end up seeing 10 fold improvement in their income. I cannot discuss any of it, as he expressed to me that it is of the utmost secrets, but I ponder it daily, and I think I'm getting better at it. Well, enough of my yackin... I'm going to bed now. Peace and Love.