Almost There?

Today was pretty casual for the most part. Mondays are always tough on me if I slack off over the weekend, which I did. It was beautiful weather though, and the gym reflected that with an over crowded attendance. It's new year's resolution part II in there right now. I have to pick a better time to go if I want to get anything done. But it's all about momentum. They don't call Wednesday hump day for nothin, but of course this Wednesday will be the equivilant of a Friday for us Belmont students. I don't know what I'm going to do for Easter Break yet. I want to go camping, but it might just bee too expensive of a venture for me right now so the possibility of me staying here is... well... pretty high.

I guess the greatest thing that happened to me today was the reunification between me and a long lost friend. She's a great girl, one of the neatest ones I know. I guess she's a woman now though... it's been a while. Not that we haven't known eachother... It's kinda complicated. We have a history together full of ups and downs, but this time I honestly believe that I can be purely a friend to her with no secret motives. That has been what I've always wanted deep down, I just didn't know how to attain it at the time.

Being friends to girls in general is difficult for me. I don't know how. I want to be as friendly to them as I am with my guy friends, but as soon as I start spending equal time with them as I do with my guy friends, society labels us a "couple". I HATE that! There's no holding hands, no physical contact at all, but society has this huge sway as to who is together and who isn't. Sometimes I just wish society could grow up so that I might have some actual girlfriends. Am I supposed to not care? Honestly it doesn't bother me what other people think, but for her sake, she shouldn't have to endure that and God knows the last thing I want to do is to make a girl a martyr. I guess it's just all up to her and what she wants. I'm strong enough to do whatever, though I prefer friendship over nothing in MOST cases.

So much has happened to me since I last wrote, but I don't know if I have time to document it all. Friday the fight between Viking and I went really really well. One of the biggest events we've had all year and I planned and executed it in under 24 hours. Doing stuff like that gives me a true sense of satisfaction. Friday night not much else went on except for me working the desk. I went to see a movie with Viking and Kibbe (Constantine) but I didn't enjoy it all that much. Saturday was pretty great. I got to sleep in for the first time in a LONG LONG time. When I awoke it was just nice enough for me to go outside and play chess with stuffy whilest I smoked my pipe under the bell tower. There were TONS of tours going on though, which I'm not really fond of, but I like observing... sorta like Jane Goodall (don't correct the spelling on that one. I already know I'm probably wrong). That night though, things went nuts. I had this horrible dream that someone was in my room with me standing over my bed with an eaten off face just staring at me. I flew out of bed and grabbed the nearest object to fight with, but nothing was there and my door was still locked. Ten minutes later, the fire alarm was pulled and we all had to go outside... me in my underwear holding an umbrella being that I couldn't find my bat. Later I talked to Chubbs and Aaron and they said they had similar dreams of someone being in their room. I have them every once in a while, and they seem so real and I get so freaked out. My heart just POUNDS! Chubbs thinks we have ghosts. I don't believe in ghosts though. Once the body dies the soul doesn't stay to linger. I do believe in evil though, so I do not count it off that it could be supernatural all of us having these dreams. Dreams can often be a window into the spiritual world. Sunday was great news though! Grace and Josh are now engaged! They're finally going to get married. I'm both excited and kinda freaked out by the whole concept of my barely older sister getting married. I try not to think about marriage as much these days. It just tares me down and makes me impatient and lonely feeling. Anyways, things didn't get too much better Sunday night. I ended up going to the hospital because one of my residents went into a diabetic coma. He's alright now and was discharched three hours after being taken to the hospital. I didn't get much sleep due to these several instances, so I'm pretty tired. I think I have everything done today that I needed to get done though. Having said all of that, I shall now retire. Peace and Love.