Thanksgiving Break

It was wonderful, the break that is. I was sick for its entirity, but I didn't care. I got to see just about everybody I know and am related to this break. Fall Break didn't fill that void. Most everyone was still at school while Belmont was having its Fall Break. My days consisted of sleepin in until noon, waking, and going out to visit the town. The nights were long, just the way I like them. Most of them I spent at Karl's house with the boys and the fire pit, but I did go bowling with the entire old church group which was quite fun. I even bowled well, which is a rarity for me. It was just one of those trips though. I was actually quite confused for the majority of it. There were the few occasions where I was able to take my mind off of life, but not many. I found out that while I was away, my boss, not my manager (the boss is higher up the ladder) for my summer job died of a heart attack a few weeks ago. The city flew its flags at half mast for a week when it happened. That made me feel kinda weird. I also found out that one of my friends is engaged to be married this summer. Yet another blow. Church this morning was also awkward in that there were so many new faces who thought I was a stranger, and so many old faces missing. Home is just different, or maybe it's just me. either way, the trip back to Belmont today wasn't so bad. I had cd's to listen to and cookies that Brittany made. It seemed to hit me slowly though as I crept back closer and closer to Nashville. All of the things I had left behind to go on break. I suddenly started to remember them. The stresses of my job, the stresses of school, and the stresses of other situations. I decided then and there that I would not feed off of that. I would instead keep the feelings I had aquired over break and just hang on for as long as I can. There's only two more weeks until Christmas Break, but those two weeks will be long and difficult. I will say this though, but vaguely because those of you whom I discussed this with will be able to understand it, and those are the only ones who need to know for now. But before I left, nay, after Fall Break, I knew something was going to happen over this break that I wouldn't neccissarily like, but that I knew had to happen. Note that I had no control over this, and it didn't even happen near by, but from what I can gather, my assumptions were correct. I must say that I am hurt, but it is a healthy hurt if that makes any sense. But I have joy though, and the definition of joy, as I learned this morning, is to know that all is right because God is God and I am not. This much I understand, and it is my strength to finish off the rest of exams. In the grand scheme of things I'm not at all worried about my exams. I know I will do my best. I'm just working on having that point of view in all aspects of life. But anyways, as I walked in to my room tonight to unpack, I found a mess. It seemed quite ironic to me in that I came back to a mess. I feel the same in every other way. But my heater sprung a leak over break, I'd guess for about three days. My floor is soaked and there is a stench that cannot be defined coming from my carpet. I am still strong though. I'm still wearing a smile on my face because I know a secret, and secrets should be kept. Peace and Love...