I got really sick yesterday and early this morning I didn't feel too great. I had a fever and a pretty bad headache, but I still went to work. Right now I just have a headache, so I'm fine. I also had my Ipod stolen out of my tool box today at work, right out from under my nose. I couldn't have been more than 20 feet from it when it happened. But these things do happen. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away. I have to remind myself that it's just an Ipod, and if I were going to be so upset and judgmental at its loss, perhaps I shouldn't have owned it in the first place. I have to learn to surrender this feeling inside of me that flares up when I feel that I have been wronged. That is my most lethal flaw and it gets me into a lot of trouble.
But things are steady right now. My new job is starting to make allowances for me to do more complicated, technical things. I'm trying to remember a lot, and there is a lot yet that I do not know, but I'm working on it as best I can. Either way, a hefty pay check is in the mail!
I'm finally feeling it though. I feel like I'm accomplishing something, or on the verge of accomplishing something. I feel as if I might just be able to take care of myself. I know it sounds silly, at least in modern culture, but it makes me feel like more of a man. I think about that a lot, about how, at my age, my parents were already married and had kids. I just don't feel anywhere near that responsible yet, but I want to. I don't think it is beyond me, I just feel like I've got a few obstacles to jump over before I land on my feet. Peace and love
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