No Complaints

I've been writing a lot of new songs. I just recorded one tonight and, though I'm still happy with the song, I'm not happy enough with the recording to release it yet. Things are good in life right now though. I mean, I don't really see myself complaining about anything right now. I remember I heard a sermon on that once. We should never live life as if our ideal moment was not having anything to complain about. That would be living out of pessimism. But really, things are going well, though still unpredictable. I've said it before though. That's the way I prefer things to be.

I start with my new job tomorrow. It'll be rough going, and I'm a little bit intimidated just because this is what it all comes down to. Do I really know my craft? I'm curious, excited, nervous, and unsure. I just don't want to be in anyone's way and I want to make sure they get their money's worth. This really is a crash course, and it's not something I'm entirely prepared for. I think I know the fundamentals, but I've never installed anything professionally before. It'll be a combination between what my dad does for a living and what I've been studying for the past four years, so I guess I can't say that it will be completely new to me.

Sleep has still been difficult though. I'm not sure what it is, other than the heat in my room. But I just can't get a good night sleep. My body chemistry is way off balance, that's for sure. I'm more aggressive, my skin is more oily, and my thoughts are unclear. Don't tell me this is another jolt of puberty. Isn't it a little late for that now? Whatever. If it will give me the gift of a full beard, then I guess I'm for it.

So I'm running through the list. I want to make sure i have everything tomorrow. It's going to be exciting, and it's going to pay more than I'm making now. I really need to make sure I can make my current finances last a couple of weeks. It'll be tough, really tough, but I'm sure I'll get through it one way or another.

Peace and love.