Iron Out

Hmmm... I've been doin a whole lot of nothing for the past few days. Can't quite complain about that. I'm running through an introverted "recharge" phase right now though, and that seems to raise a few eyebrows with my friends here and there, but I don't judge them for their lack of understanding. I'm in need and I can't quite put my finger on it, so I've been feeling confused and doing weird things that I normally wouldn't, but I also have been working out on a regular basis, and that has helped keep me on a more level keel.

I'm really getting bored watching movies all the time. That seems like all I do when I don't have anything to do. I try to write music sometimes, but it just doesn't come anymore. I think my confidence is shot. I don't think very highly of the music I write. It's sorta like having a really ugly baby. I love it and I always will, but I wouldn't expect anyone else to... I know, I know, pretty bad analogy, but it's the best I could do.

So this week... I have work and at the end of the week I have class. I'm going to work hard for the sole purpose of smothing out the rest of the semester. I need to be on top of my game, do the best I can to just hold on a little bit longer. It's hard because you have to postpone your dreams to deal with the crap that you're in now. I've been doing that for too long and I'm breaking. After all these years I've been under pressure after pressure, but I've not broken until now. I'm glad I finally know my limits.

Peace and love.