Cameron helped me out with the pictures I need for my modeling interview tomorrow though. You can check out more of his stuff at http://www.riverrockmediagroup.com
I was reading a book last night that really called me out on feeling sorry for myself and my situations. It is so easy to surrender to a bad mindset every day. It doesn't take much. But to be positive and happy really takes hard work. I knew a girl like that last year, and for the longest time it really bothered me that she was always so positive. I thought that there was so much horrible stuff going on in both the physical and spiritual, why should anyone be really happy all the time? Anyone who is like that can't have a strong grasp on reality. After all, she seemed really well guarded emotionally on top of that, so I thought it as a crutch, a method to hide her true feelings from everyone around her.
So I misjudged her. Now I have a great respect for her, but of course, a bit too late. She's not here anymore and when she left I was still REALLY self-absorbed. I hate it that I insist on learning things even at the expense of others. I'd like to think that we could have been pretty good friends given that I could have been a little bit more wise. I'm sure she holds nothing against me though. She's too pure hearted for that, which is another reason I respect her so much.
Ahh... but I'm talking about the past again. I shouldn't do that as much as I do, but I think I do because it's easy to control. Thinking about the future isn't very fun because you don't know what's going to happen, so you're not in control. Thinking about the past on the other hand is more enticing because you already know what happened and you can control what you're thinking about. Does that make sense? Yeah... probably not.
Oh well, I'm going to bed because even though I don't have class tomorrow, that doesn't mean that I don't have lots to do. Peace and love everybody!
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