Accidental Eye Contact...That's the Worst

I would say today was, overall, a successful day. I feel like I'm moving in a very positive direction. Sometimes I think God allows us to go through these periods of self reflection to see just how far we've come. So I'm currently looking from a bird's eye view and feeling satisfaction but still a need to move forward.

I gave a speech tonight at the RA "meet and greet". It was on what my life has been like as an RA, and it really made me think about it and feel pretty satisfied about where this job has taken me.

After the meet and greet I went to tear down a show in the Curb. We were working and all of the poeple from the show were slowly trickling out. Then, out of the corner of my eye, who should I see. None other than the girl who I was interested in that all of the sudden disappeared from the face of the earth. We both accidentaly made eye contact if but for a millisecond. It was enough to bring out my not so appealing side and enough for her to split within the blink of an eye. I'm not justified in feeling this way. I didn't really know her that well, but it all just goes to show that I'm ill prepared. I know I shouldn't get defensive about stuff like that, but I don't know how to handle it like the general majority. I can't just shrug and smile, but I think I'm learning. I guess this is just where I have to cast my personal rights out the window because that's the only way I'm going to feel good about that situation. That and time.

Now other than that I feel pretty good. I'm ready to start pushing harder on my workouts and I still feel pretty content. Have a blessed day tomorrow. Peace and love.