i know it has been quite a long time since i have written a journal and there, of course, are many legitamate reasons as to why this is so. first and foremost i have been busy. let me just fill you in on what assignments this week has entialed and the schedule i have taken upon myself to complete such tasks. monday night i pulled an all-nighter and wrote a two page speech on the selective service and then i wrote a five page paper on a book for history class. i finished these two tasks at six am in the morning and then went to bed only to wake at 7:30 to go to my eight o'clock psychology class. after that i came back and went to bed for a very long time (3:30) and then went to my religion class. upon finishing religion i immediately went back to my room and continued working on my religion assignment of 143 terms and definitions where upon discontinuing that for the day followed by stepping on a thumb tack and having it completely enter my foot, i continued to practice my speech. today i woke up at 7:30 again and practiced my speech until it was time to give at 9. The speech was then given in success and i also turned in my five page paper to my history class. after all of this has been completed, i am only half way through. tomorrow i must work on writing 20 portfolio journal enteries due on friday and study for an exam (not a final) that also rests on friday. in short, i'm busy all of the time. i decided to take this evening off just to blow some stress, but tomorrow it's back to the mill stone.

my next excuse for not writing a journal is somewhat related in that i have had nothing out of the ordinary happen to me since i've been doing all of this work. i've pretty much been confined to a desk for the past four or five days, so things tend to not happen that are exciting enough to post. tomorrow i have to wake up at 7:00 to register for classes, but my eight o'clock class is cancled so i'm going back to bed after that. as soon as i wake up though, it's back to work on those journals. i have never failed at procrastination and i do not plan on starting now. i always pull through.

this weekend, considering this week, is going to be glorious. i will have absolutely no assignments due, so i think i might take it upon myself to record more songs. i will, of course, study here and there to prepare for finals, but i'm not going to let it get to me. finals seem to come naturally to me in that i always do much better on them than on any other test throughout the year. i really do need a break though. there have just been far too many stresses in social and academic life lately.

as all of this is finally winding down i've also been confronted with thoughts of what i'm going to do when i get home. right now job opportunities aren't looking too good and i need to make enough money to live off of for next year. also settling down and being an r.a. is another issue, but these are just more stress on the pile and, oddly enough, i'm too numb to even be bothered by it. stress effects me in a strange way. i focus so much energy towards the most immediate threat that i seem to be apathetic towards anything else. it's not that i don't care, it's just that i can't sacrifice the brainspace that caring requires. this is not something that i've learned about myself in college though. i have always been a king of procrastination. fortunately, however, i've also been blessed with the type of mind that doesn't have to work too hard to retain information. life goes on though, and i must go to bed because, again, i have to wake up at 7 to register for classes. peace and love