so i'm finally going to bed early (if you could call midnight early). i've just been doing some weird stuff with my alarm lately and i need to teach myself to stop. for instance on tuesday morning i got out of bed, turned off my alarm and climbed back up on the top bunk... without waking up. it was then when i woke up at 8:55 and realized that i was late to my 8 o'clock class. don't worry too much about that though because it is the first time i've ever missed that class anyways. this morning i don't even know what i did. i woke up just as i climbed back in to bed so in a sense i caught myself in the act. it seemed that somehow i turned the radio on to a talk show and then tried to sneak back to sleep without waking myself up. i caught myself just as i slid under the covers so i wasn't late which is a good thing because i can't miss any more days in my monday wednesday friday class. it is going to be a busy rest of the week though. i've just got lots to prepare for, and with finals coming up, i have to be on my best behavior. i'm probably going to be doing a good bit of work when i come home for easter just to try and play catch-up, but unfortunately it will probably only make a dent in my pile. i can look on the bright side though. i've never totally just not done something. i can usually motivate myself when "sink or swim" time swings around to swim. sure it is hard and it's not for everyone, but i consider it to be an adventure. on an up note though, i feel as if i have a greater capacity for stress. usually, kinda like a water balloon, i would just get to a certain point and pop, but now i'm handling it better. the news about ansley's cancer has hit me quite hard though. i have been praying harder for her than i have ever prayed in my entire life and i know that God has complete control over the situation. it's just that some times God's plan and His will get me so confused. i have not been in great communication with back home, but i know that it has hit everyone as a suprise. all i ask is that you pray for her and her family though. that is the most powerful thing we can do right now. peace and love.