Santa Claus vs. The Dark Ninja

Today was the fight of fights. Today, the Dark Ninja challenged Santa Claus to a fight and was defeated. I gotta say, it was alot of fun. I was a bit nervous about climbing that tree because I was in socks and it was a long drop to hard cement if I fell, but alas, I maintained balance and grip. I think it turned out really well, and we got it on tape so we can watch it for years to come, but it was by far surpassed the Viking/Easter Bunny fight last year in complexity. Attendance was a little lower, but everyone who came out really enjoyed the show, and that's all that matters to me.

The rest of the day went by nicely, though the fight wore me out pretty good. I took Matt with me to Playground to help with a session set up, and he got to meet Jimmy, my boss. When time came to set everything up, we did it and we did it quickly and flawlessly. Jimmy was so impressed, he gave Matt a company t-shirt. We got nothing but compliments from the staff and the musicians, and even the Head Engineer gave us a compliment, and he's not one to hand out compliments often. I felt really good about that. Makes me think that my education isn't going to waste.

After that, I played pool with Matt and then took a nap. When I woke up, we all went out to dinner, and here I am now, sitting satisfied. I'm anxious though, and again, I can't quite place it. It also hasn't helped that I've not been able to relax at all in the past few days. I have a constant feeling like I should be doing something, and I just can't sit back. I'm also worried about one of my friends who has been sick for a while. It's that sort of helpless worry you get when you know there's something wrong, yet there's nothing you can do to lighten the load. I hate that... Now that I think about it, you know what my problem is? It's my "do it all" mentality. I'm guilty of never asking for help for anything. I see everything as a challenge, and if I can't do it myself, I see it as a failure. I still haven't learned to let others lend a hand. I think I just carry so much weight, that eventually I break down and have to take time to regroup. Maybe I'm on the verge of that now. Maybe I need to learn how to let other people "in" a little bit more. That's easily said, but where does a guy like me start? Whatever... I'm going a bit too far for public reading material.

I'm looking forward to a possible snow tonight though. I might just go out and watch a little bit of it fall before I sleep, but I'm not positive if it's coming. Nothing is falling as of now atleast... ahhh, but I can still hope can't I?

Hmmm... I need to write a song now. Peace and love.