My mind was spent today in settling around what all has just happened in my life. What does it all mean? I'd like to think that getting a job is the final solution to all of my problems, but they will only increase after this, that's for sure. I think of it sort of like standing in line at a theme park. I've been in this line to get to the tallest waterslide in the park and it's hot and it involves stairs. But I've been in this line for four years, and all I can think about is getting to the top and having my turn at the slide. But now, with this job, I am at the top. I'm standing at the peak of this slide, and for the first time, I'm looking down. It's scarry down there and full of random twists and turns. It's dark too. But I'm going. I do this in the name of progress. I feel that stagnance is wrong, and that is what my life will become if I stay in Nashville. It will become passive and comfortable and wrong.
What I am about to do is uncomfortable and uncertain, but that is the key to growth, and I desperately wish to grow. I mean yeah, it will be hard for me to leave my friends, but we have strong friendships and I know we will all keep in touch. It just has to be done.
So to the uncertain times ahead... What I shall be in a year is a mystery. Peace and love.
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This is me exactly one year from this post. Wow... I didn't think that much change was possible in one year. I am better and I am worse. I'm still in Nashville. I got into a relationship that changed my life and then it ended. Now I'm figuring out what to do again. Weird.
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