The Bottom Rung

I haven't written much in a while. I've been doing a lot of thinking and partaking in quite a bit of action though. I'm trying to level out from this tail-spin that I hit as soon as school ended. Moving, careers, future... what does it all mean? Then there's the realization that, as far as this world is concerned, I don't mean much at all. For instance, Mitch and I both took a motorcycle safety course over the weekend. it was one of the most fun things I've done in a while, and it was very informative.


The first pic is of me strattling a Honda Rebel. It was an older bike, but it had a lot of character. Mitch is the second pic, and he's holding on to a Honda CBR250X. I think that's what it's called at least. It was a standard bike that handled and sounded a lot different from mine. Again, we had a lot of fun, and after we were done, I went to get my motorcycle license. That was to be the next step before I could look at getting a motorcycle. So on Monday morning I pushed time limits to the max. I went and got my license and then went to look at motorcycles. I test drove a beautiful Honda Shadow 750DC, basically my dream bike. It handled well and I filled out all the paperwork for it. Then the guy came out and said they couldn't sell it to me because I haven't been in the workforce long enough and I have student loans lined up behind me. Reality sets in. Financially I mean nothing in this world. I'm small again. Just like all of those freshman years I spent working my way up from the bottom rung.

So now I have to fight. I have to work my way up from the bottom rung again. I went home slightly discouraged, but not enough to deter me from making some sort of a game plan. I started looking for better jobs in the area. Thus far I have the bank job going for me, and a possibility at a car dealership. I know what you're thinking. Car dealership? Yes, me too at first. But then I thought about my personality and my skills. I could not only do it, but do it well. I'm still looking for audio work though. That is my true career ambition. Maybe even audio sales, who knows.

But I guess college prepared me to handle these stresses, not to be overwhelmed. I'm looking for a good job and as for the bike, Mitch and I have decided to go Ebay. We want to see if we can find a bike that needs some attention. It would be good for us to learn bike mechanics before we start riding. We can potentially get one for around a hundred bucks off some guy that can't tell the trottle from the kickstand. That's the current idea at least. I've got my eye on a bike from NC and one from IL. If the bid stays low enough, Mitch and I will go halvsies on it and then drive over (or up) to get it.

Start small in this world, and work your way up. It's an age old lesson that I've been quite good at thus far. I've never let it get me down before, and though this step will certainly take much longer than the ones in the past, I feel like I can take it. I have faith that God has some grand purpose for all of this. But it's hard being a man of action and not knowing where or how to act. Patience plays a neglected role in my life. It always has. I accredit a that characteristic to a great deal of my success, and also a great deal of my failures. But I'll learn to be efficient with it and to strengthen that weakness. I'm also going to learn how to live under even lower standards than before and how to work harder than before.

That's all I've got in me for now. Peace and love.