Immersion

I haven't eaten dinner yet and I suppose I should, but I've been immersed in something amazing. I'm not talking about love, but it has a few of the same side effects. I'm not going to say much about it right now as a few things have yet to fall into place. Keeping my fingers crossed though...

It's been nice not having a TV for the past few days. Mitch is moving out with Jason right now and he took the one we were using. It's gone and now we actually do a fair share of communication. I have a real love-hate relationship with television. I went out for coffee and reading tonight... or rather, hot tea and reading. I'm not much of a coffee drinker, though I suppose I could use a cup in the morning on the occasion. This morning was pretty rough. I hit snooze a couple of times in a half awake stupor, and I must have hit the wrong button finally because I fell back asleep and was woken by a phone call. It was my boss asking me where I was. Fortunately I wasn't late yet, but you should have seen me fly. I was up and out and at work in 10 minutes. That's pretty much a record for me. But I hate it when that happens, and it does about three times a year. I need to figure out a better way of waking up in the morning. I think I am going to have to require that I go to sleep earlier because I just don't think my body is pulling enough hours on the pillow. I also need to cut back on the beer again. I drink a lot of times pretty close to bedtime, and that's not good. That means I can't enter REM, which is where my body gets all of its rest. Basically, all this to say that the way I am governing my life right now isn't very healthy. I could use a few alterations in diet, sleep habits, and mental focus.

I might find out my hire status by tomorrow though. They had a meeting today about me (I think) and whether or not they could hire me. I know I had a lot of guys backing me up. They really like me over there, at least, the ones that I have worked with. I would love a full time position, but my spirit is prepared if I am declined. I still have the determination to find satisfactory employment.

Bunches of people will start arriving in Nashville pretty soon though. I do miss seeing everybody, running into people I am familiar with at the grocery store or at church. All that is great, but I'm still uncertain as to what is going to happen between my inner circle of friends. Everybody is changing rapidly. Some of them are getting depressed, some of them are entering new mentalities, some are breaking away. I don't know which category I fall under exactly. I don't feel depressed. I feel rather motivated. I kind of feel like I'm entering a new mentality, but is it happening that rapidly? And I guess I am breaking away ever so slightly, developing new hobbies, and trying to meet new people. But basically, a lot is changing around us and I think it will become shaky for some. I want to try and have a positive spin on things. I think the biggest temptation is for us to turn inwards and focus on ourselves, blocking out the feelings of our friends and anyone else around us. It is pretty common for me to do this, but I will try to maintain an awareness during the next few months.

Well... I'm going to cook some dinner and get to sleep early tonight. Peace and love.