City Streets

So this is where I've been working for the past week.

It's a good job, and I make decent money. For instance, today Drew Carey left us a $100 tip. That doesn't happen every day, but it was cool to meet him. The only rough part about the job is standing and running all day with exception to lunch. At lunch I go walking through downtown to find my friend Joe the hotdog guy. He and I are on a first name basis and he serves New York style hotdogs from an authentic city sidewalk hotdog stand. The city, especially around the capital building, looks amazing during the day, with people going in and out of fancy tall buildings or sitting on benches talking with friends.

Lately I've been having a longing to get back into my music. I haven't touched my guitar in a while, and I'm bursting with new ideas. I'm going to start writing again.

I'm looking forward to tomorrow. I'm going home for the first time since December. I need a good vacation from this place. Not that it's been bad, but it's always good to get out for a little bit to refresh myself with unbiased thought.

Speaking of unbiased thought, I'm workin on that. I was thinking about my motivations and about my desires, and it's so hard to measure them when you let your emotions get in the way. It clouds the way you think of other people. I've realized that I'm a bit more emotional than I credit myself with though I don't express the kind of emotions that one would think. I don't cry and I haven't in a long time. I get upset though. My emotions eat at me from the inside causing me to loose sleep or appetite or to back down from social situations or to become overbearing. Those are the kinds of emotions that I have to learn to control. Part of that I use and express through my music, but I haven't done that in a while so I've got a pretty cloudy mind right now. Actually I think a lot of it spurs from the anxiety of change. I've been through quite a bit of change lately with a new job, a new apartment, new co-workers, and a new way of life. That's a good bit of pressure. It'll be ten times this amount of pressure when I graduate next year. Ouch.

Haha, I'm watching The Poseidon Adventure right now and everyone is taking deep breaths and going under water to follow a rope through part of the submerged ship. Every time someone goes under I catch myself holding my breath. It's pretty good. I don't know about the new one. Hollywood has the tendency to take movies like this and "pop" them out with thrills and scares. Why would you re-do a movie like this?

I'm in the midst, also, of reading two books. First there's "Dante's Inferno". It's part of Dante's Divine Comedy (not "haha" comedy) on Heaven and Hell. This book is his depiction of Hell and it's many steps. He seriously could have been burned alive for some of the things he said back then about bishops and popes being in the center of Hell... Pretty crazy.

The second book I'm working on is "Yvain or The Knight with the Lion". It's an old classic French poem written during a time of fascination over King Arthur's Court. Thus far, a pretty good book.

Well... now I leave you. Peace and love.