One foot in front of the other. I have to remember that day by day as life gets more and more complicated. And there are certain things that still bother me, things that shouldn't. But that's just me. I'm the guy that just can't find it in him to let something go. Even when I want to I can't. I'm constantly bothered by some deep thought or by the weight of things that tripped me up yesterday or years ago. I'm not trying to claim an intellectual depth. That would be far from the truth. I just sometimes get curious to see the world through the eyes of someone who doesn't see the things that I see, someone who sees a rainy day as a cleansing and rejuvenating day instead of a grey, sunless, dreary day. I dated a girl like that once, and I never understood how she did it. At first I thought it was naivety but then I came to be envious of it. But I'm not ashamed of who I am. I just haven't quite figured out my entire purpose yet. I know my basic nature and my strengths and weaknesses, but purpose... heh... what senior in college knows his or her purpose? I guess there are some, but not many.
Tonight I sleep early again. I'm up at 5:30 for work and I haven't managed that in a LONG time, so we'll see what happens throughout the day. I did manage to scavenge up a couple Red Bull to open my eyes in the morning, but my brain is another story. When I get there I'm going to hold a positive mentality. I WILL enjoy this job. I'd better enjoy it. I'm going to be spending most of my time there.
Peace and love.
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