Sometimes You're Up and Sometimes You're Down... But Not In Nottingham

"Every single town

Has it's ups and downs

Sometimes up

And sometimes you're down

But not in Nottingham"

Ahh, the favorite lyrics from an all-time classic. The old Disney cartoon of Robin Hood was a building block of sorts in my life. It taught me a few harsh truths about about the real world which were, sometimes you're up, and then the next day you can be down just as fast... but not in Nottingham. Fortunately for me, I don't live in Nottingham, but in Nashville. That pretty much means that I will remain on the fluctuating up and down pattern of life instead of Nottingham's continuous downward trend. Today was one of those days though. I don't know what's wrong with me sometimes, but I think the majority of it is just shear tiredness. Anyways, today I was going up and down mood wise in a mere matter of minutes. No I'm not having mood swings, but it just seemed like I would have an awsome experience followed by a rather discouraging or confusing one. The most of my discouragement comes through the unecessary competition between myself and others. The specifics of this I will not divulge in a public journal, but it seems like somthing potentially great comes my way and just on the other side of it is choppy water. I will NOT compete with someone else to win anything, but I will be myself in all the things I do. Just what is "myself"? Well, It's rather hard to explain. In fact, it's taken me 20 years to figure it out this far, so I'm sure it would take an exhausting amount of time to explain it. The most abridged way I can think of myself as is one who observes, who has alot of himself to give, who holds high ambition, but who is relatively lonely. Sure I've got lots of great guy friends, but you know what I'm talking about. And I'm not one of those guys that chases after a girl for mere sport either, so if you've got advice on THAT matter, I ask that you re-evaluate it before you give it to me. But that's another thing. The whole ordeal with my last relationship was finally resolved this past summer and it was the bravest but most difficult thing I've ever done. Once again the details are only for the select few who know, but what I'll tell you is that it hurt much less than I thought it would have, and now I feel GREAT! I compare it to having a terminal disease for three years and then waking up one morning to find out that you are cured. So what does this mean? I suppose it means that I have alot of catching up to do as far as where my thoughts have been because for the past three years, many of them were preoccupied with one person. Now that I have all this extra thought in my hands... I honestly don't know what to do with it, but it feels great. Kinda like that feeling you get when you find an old coat or a pair of pants or something and you search the pockets to find $20 in there that you had forgotten about a few years ago. Yeah... that feeling.

I suppose an overview of the day would be called for though. Today was kinda cool with the RA activities that we got to do. Once again I met many new folks, and I'm getting in the role of remembering names, though I haven't yet mastered that art. The best part of the day was about the dorm hall spots. The whole theme for RA training this week has been "Got Community" based primarily around the bovine, and in so, there have been many cow decorations scattered here and there. For instance, each dorm hall had a special cow spot made out of foam with their hall's name on it... cow spots that we pembroke boys... (I mean men) stole and held for ransom. During the day all of the dorms were after our blood, but we kept a strong hold of their spotts. It wasn't untill Chubbs, our boss, got kidnapped that things climaxed. The girl dorms got a hold of him and they gave him a make-over with nail polish, blush, and lipstick. I mean this was the full shabang! We got him back in exchange for one sign but then we made all the other girl dorms give us a kiss on the cheek for theirs. Well... one dorm kissed us on the cheek, and the other, we kissed their hands, but we have photographic evidence of both. That's about it though. Now, since I can barely see straight I'm so tired, I think it would be best for me to go to bed. Peace and Love.