Sometimes I'm a Jerk... And Here's Why

So if you know me, then sometimes you know I can be an absolute jerk... but I'd like to think that it's not too often. Anyways there are several reasons why this is so. First of all, and the part that is largely responsible for my jerk attitude today, is the fact that I don't deal too well with being tired and constantly mingling all the time. I need some time alone to defuse. The being tired part wouldn't be a problem if only I could take a nap during the day, but right now I'm about five days off as far as sleep is concerned.

The second reason as to why I can be such a jerk sometimes is this. I have always thought of myself as an unemotional person, lacking in the department of compassion. My mom, however has this crazy notion that I build walls more than any other person she knows because I am compassionate and I actually do care. This hypothesis got me thinking, especially today as I seemed to isolate myself from larger crowds in attempts to regroup my thoughts and focus. I was wondering why I was one of the few people there that had to do that. I mean, I most certainly was not the only tired and ticked off person there, but I was one of the few that had to get away. So basically I had to call myself down on the carpet and admit that yes, I was indeed escaping, but again, why? As I continued along with this thought process I was led to the conclusion that I get away because I don't like to snap at people. As cheezy as that sounds, it's true. If I am feeling short tempered, I will most always quarantine myself away. I mean, it's rare that that actually happens, but this week is definitaly an acception. But anyways... I'm tired and I think I'll finish tomorrow... peace and love