Mentality

You sometimes have to catch yourself from jumping into preconceived ideas and feelings. We aren't always right, despite our wishes. All day I was jumping in and out of positive thinking. I met up with Mitch for lunch today and was expalining how I felt to him which, come to think of it, I should really do with someone more often. I tend to keep things locked up without even thinking about it. But anyways, I'm fighting a war right now. I have the potential to be really stressed out this week or to accept these trials as an entertaining challenge. I have the choice to understand my current state as either opression or a blessing. I know I'm going to make it. I have hope. It's just all about the mentality from now until I'm there.

I'm thinking also about after school plans. I'm thinking heavily on Raleigh, but I also haven't completely ruled out staying in Nashville. There are only two things that could keep me here, and one of those things is if my church ends up needing me for something. The other reason is personal. I've also brought on a third possibility. I could go to China as an English teacher when I graduate. I hear they pay well and who knows, maybe I could be a little bit more than just an English teacher while there.

But over all today I've been trying to count my blessings. I have to become mentally fit before I enter the gates of what this week will hold. I want to do what I do well. I want to be satisfied. Peace and love.