Reading Writing and Reflection

I haven't written in a while, not because I haven't had the time, but because I just haven't felt up to the task. I'm still burried in quite a bit of change and adversity, but I'm learning to manage as I always seem to do. Today I put forth my first installment of rent. I wasn't expecting it to come so soon, but I'm prepared... I suppose. This gives all new meaning to the purpose of my labors. I have to raise money to keep a roof over my head. Welcome to the real world. I think I'll like it though. It will yield a new breed of satisfaction into my life while simultaneously preparing me for things to come.

So do I dare reflect on the summer? I really don't know what to make of it other than this has been my most realistic sneak peak at what life might be like after I graduate. I mean, I hope I have a little better job than valet, but for now I like driving cars and making tips. It has forced me to learn how to talk with strangers, conquering what I was taught as a kid.

I don't know what else to say. I can speculate for hours as to what might happen in the future, but I will never know for sure. For now I shall work on my focus, polishing my goals, and coming into an understanding of why I am spiritually here. "This year will fly by faster than we realize." Charles said to me as we talked on the phone today about our busy lives. I know that's true. It has been true every year, but even more so. It keeps on speeding up and speeding up. We will probably die before we ever reach terminal velocity. Peace and love.