The First Cold

While the day was busy trying to stress me out, I was elsewhere in my mind. I feel optomistic right now and ready for upcoming challenge. Speaking of which, there seems to be plenty on the horizon, but again, I feel too concerned with higher goals right now than the menial ones at hand... I'll still get the little ones done, but I'm not overly thrilled about it.

This train of thought can become dangerous thought. I speak as a person who has very progressive thought habits. I always want to know what's going to happen next, but it is healthy to consider that while progressive thinking can be very beneficial, there is a point of moderation and a point of abuse. Here, for instance, because of my current overly progressive thinking, I no longer posses failure as a motivator to get things done. These failures, as they used to seem rather large, now seem small. I'm tired of being spoon fed my education. I want to educate myself on the things I want to know. Isn't that the point of edcuation anyways? That's the message a large majority of students receives anyways. You are educated so you can learn how to educate yourself. Come to think of it, that's really all employers care about too. Can this guy learn the ropes of the job or can't he?

There's still so much for this year to hold thought. That's for sure. I don't REALLY know where I'm going when I graduate. I'm looking for signs where ever I go that might point me in any specific direction, and thus far, most of them are pointing to Raleigh NC. There is really one, maybe two things, that could keep me in Nashville for any prolonged period of time, and as I would prefer to keep those as personal subjects, I can reveal this much. Each day that passes compiles more and more doubt in me that my roots belong here.

So let me surface in intellectual conversation before I go to bed to say these few words. It is really cold outside. It would be convenient to have a stronger arsonal of warmer cloths, but for the time being, at least I have my space heater and a few warm coats. I should be greatful. Space heaters are great, by the way. Mine is especially nice when, right before I go to sleep, I throw my blanket over it and get underneath and bake fore a few minutes. Mmmm... That sounds nice. I think I might just do that now. Peace and love.